Nerd Alert.

2 posts in 1 day?!

breaking up is good for blogging, that's for sure.

anyways, onto awesome/awkward lists..

Awesome:

-my momma is here! means I get lots of groceries and magazines and we even got to eat Chipotle

-selling clothes back to Plato's Closet and getting $40. now time to pay bills..

-I went to Target today. End of story.

-I got to eat Red Mango with my momma. This is delicious frozen yogurt, just in case you didn't know.

and the big one....

-I got inducted into Phi Alpha Theta! 

I know what you're thinking too, but no, it's not a sorority.. I'm not that cool people. It's a national history honor society, and I know have a lifetime membership, and can now prove I'm a nerd anytime I want with a shiny sheet of paper.

quasi outfit post anyone? take note of those boots...they are my stylish momma's and I've been trying to pry them from her for years.... success is mine! (only for the night, but whatever)

this picture is important for two reasons.
1) shiny sheet of paper
2) I actually did my hair. like combed/curled/hair-sprayed
3) proof that I wear red. this coat is the only red thing I own. go big or go home right?!

Awkward:

-fixing your tights while in the elevator and then having the door open before your done, ooops

-eating an apple in the quiet room of the library. it seems so loud!

-seeing both my french professors in one day=lots of flustered/mumbled french.

-after being inducted into above honor society, leaving in such a rush because I want frozen yogurt, that I leave my certificate in the room. talk about awkward re-enterance. 

overall, it's been a wonderful day. my momma is definitely the one responsible for this, and after this weekend, it was a much needed break.

Happiness on Monday.

love love love this quote. perfect for how I feel right now. kind of lost, but kind of ok with that

instant self-esteem boost. plus drake and nicki are sooooo cute in this video. you got it girrrrrrrl! 

I'm so proud of you.

My life is an Adele album.

ok so as I'm sure you all have noticed, I have been pretty MIA recently.

there's a bunch of reasons for this...tons of schoolwork, volunteer work, normal work.

I also decided to graduate next August, which is a year early, and feel really good about this decision.

I've been feeling frustrated with school and I really think a year off is exactly what I need right now.

my plan so far is to try and volunteer for a year either through Americorp or aboard somewhere.

super exciting/stressful at the same time.

......but to be honest, all of that isn't really why I haven't been blogging much.

the main reason is I got back together with my ex-boyfriend and I was focusing on that relationship and trying to make it a happy/healthy one. this meant a lot of driving and effort on my part since it was long-distance. I thought everything was going really well also. we were going on dates and going to church together (a big deal to me), and overall I was happy.

but if any of you are familiar with this relationship, you can probably guess how it ends. I'm not really one to share/flaut my life all over the internet but this is a big deal to me, and will probably be something I'll be dealing with for a bit. so the boy and I got back together officially (first time it's been officially, couple other times unofficially) and I thought everything was finally right. we both seemed to be at good places in our lives, and I thought we had a chance to get it right. so I invested myself. I put effort in.

but in the back of my mind, I knew that he could back out at any minute. it's happened many many many times before, and I end up feeling like complete crap. but this time seemed different. he seemed changed.

but last night he backed out again. 

.....after I told everyone close to me, and after I stood up for him and defended him to my upset friends and families.... after I listened to both of my best friends pretty much tell me that I was making the worst decision of my life....after I had finally decided that he seemed to really want to be with me and that I didn't need to question it anymore....after we had decided to be Don Draper and Joan Halloway from Mad Men. good thing I didn't buy those leopard print heels and a wiggle dress yet....

he just doesn't want it.

he's been acting this whole time.

and he didn't want it from the beginning. 

and I can't make him want it.

and now I have to walk away. even if I still care about him. even if I think he's just scared. even if I think there's something bigger going on as well. I hate walking away. I'm bad at cutting people out of my life. I've already lost too many to deal with, so how could I possibly loss one more?

and the worst part is I should have expected it. but I really like to believe people.

I am naive. and silly. and I care too much.

and it gets me hurt often.

but... I still wouldn't change it. I'd rather believe that people are inherently good than bad, and to trust a boy when he says he misses me and wants to take this risk with me. I really thought I'd get that crazy wonderful romance. what kind of life would it be if you didn't take risks? or believed everyone was out to get you? 

I'd rather be naive any day.

plus I have amazing friends, and my mom is awesome. I called her last night at 5am when all of this was happening and she drives the 2 and half hours to see me and is coming back to Chicago with me tonight. I seriously don't know what'd I do without her. my support system is so incredibly solid, and that my friends, is a wonderful feeling.

and my mom bought me a new purse and scarf, yaaaay sympathy gifts!

but life will get better. and I'll get A's on all my midterms this week, and it will be a good week. 

Words of Wisdom

just some words of wisdom for you all (: I promise to actually post this weekend once all my midterm/paper are all done.... have a good wednesday!

Words of Wisdom

via pinterest

Happy Birthday Best Friend!

today is a great day people....it's Ms. Kathleen Leahy's 21st birthday!

should probably be a national holiday, I mean I bought a pinata and everything. 

it's fiesta themed and yes I got a ton of stares walking through the streets of chicago with a pinata.

someone even asked me if I was having an ok night/needed help...uuuuhhh.

anyways, meet carlos!

and now onto the greatness that is Kat...

iowa roadtrips!

likes pugs!

the great apartment search/summer roommate!

and we danced in the rain together. perfection.

making that first legal purchase,  oooh yeah!

happy birthday best friend!

go tear it up! and based on what I saw last night, it's going to be an excellent in week in the life of Kathleen Leahy, my friends.

Day 3 + Day 2 + Day 1

woohooooo today I'm going to finally finish up the 10 day challenge!

(only like a month later, nbd.)

Three Films:

alright this is a difficult one. I seriously love movies, and feel like each new one I see is the next greatest thing to hit humanity. so these 3 films will probably only be my favorites for the next 24 hours since  I have plans to see 50/50 this weekend, super stoked!

anyways....

1. Mulan. ummm girlpower anyone? She's a total ba, and she gets the man....winning! also, it has the song 'Reflection'-Christina Aguilera's shining moment before she goes Dirrty.. and before she gets arrested for Public Intoxication.

2. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. So beautiful. If you haven't seen it, please please go watch it, but don't start it at like 2am because you will fall asleep and have mess up dreams...but seriously so good. in fact, I'll probably watch it tonight.

3. Bridesmaids. Omg. HILARIOUS. I saw this movie with my momma and my best friend, and it was one of the best nights of my life. I literally cried from laughing so hard the entire movie. and when it came out last weekend, I made my friends take me to Walmart to buy it at like midnight...and we were celebrating a 21st birthday that night. that's some serious commitment to getting a movie.

two songs:

easy peasy.

1. Start Over by Beyonce.

ok, I'm obsessed. if you're my friend on fb, you already know this so bear with me. She's amazing. The song is beautiful and I could listen to it 5 times a day.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1TDYawaAUqo

2. Amazing Grace on the bagpipes.

this is probably the hardest song for me to listen to in the whole wide world, but also the most meaningful to me. we flew into bagpiper for my brother's funeral to play this, and it was the most beautiful sound. whenever I hear it, it makes me some stop and remember Jeff (which is incredibly hard) but also something I need to do in my life.

Day 1:

a photo of yourself.

hi, my name's kelli and I like to get down. also, I wear too many scarfs. like waaaaay too many.