ok so I promise promise promise I actually have a life update post coming soon! I sort of took an impromptu blogging break, and it was a good thing.
this past week, I've found myself thinking about this time last year a lot. remembering all the changes my life was going through, all the uncertainty, and all the pain.
I was in the middle of graduating early, finding out I had a heart defect, had applied/was interviewing/getting offers for years of service in various parts of the country, and I was also trying to make an unhealthy relationship work.
I had so many dreams for the year to come..to travel, to date someone new, to be moved by something, to meet new people, to immerse myself in new culture, to help others.. but yet I was holding onto a relationship that was holding me back.
I was ready to give up all my dreams for that one person pretty much until I wasn't anymore.
but honestly, I had already been taking the steps to walk away. it's so much easier to walk away when you have something to walk too. for me, this wasn't another person. this was my life. it was traveling, it was volunteering, it was spending time with my family, it was loving my body, it was pursuing my dreams, respecting my own choices, and just being happy.
looking back, it's been a crazy year. at this exact time on this exact day, I was on the phone with him having our very last conversation of a five year relationship.
since then, I've graduated college with honors, gone a perfect spring break trip with my best friends, traveled to Guatemala, traveled to Tunisia, dated someone new, moved to North Carolina and started The Abraham Project, and applied to Masters of Public Health programs.
in other words, my life has completely changed.
all it took was walking away (or my case, moving half way across the country.
this past week, I've found myself thinking about this time last year a lot. remembering all the changes my life was going through, all the uncertainty, and all the pain.
I was in the middle of graduating early, finding out I had a heart defect, had applied/was interviewing/getting offers for years of service in various parts of the country, and I was also trying to make an unhealthy relationship work.
I had so many dreams for the year to come..to travel, to date someone new, to be moved by something, to meet new people, to immerse myself in new culture, to help others.. but yet I was holding onto a relationship that was holding me back.
I was ready to give up all my dreams for that one person pretty much until I wasn't anymore.
but honestly, I had already been taking the steps to walk away. it's so much easier to walk away when you have something to walk too. for me, this wasn't another person. this was my life. it was traveling, it was volunteering, it was spending time with my family, it was loving my body, it was pursuing my dreams, respecting my own choices, and just being happy.
looking back, it's been a crazy year. at this exact time on this exact day, I was on the phone with him having our very last conversation of a five year relationship.
since then, I've graduated college with honors, gone a perfect spring break trip with my best friends, traveled to Guatemala, traveled to Tunisia, dated someone new, moved to North Carolina and started The Abraham Project, and applied to Masters of Public Health programs.
in other words, my life has completely changed.
all it took was walking away (or my case, moving half way across the country.
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