Weekend Recap.

oh my gosh this week/weekend flew by!

luckily, I only had to have the heart monitor for 24 hrs so I was free to be an indian. thank goodness!

(I was lazy/no time for a costume so I went with what I had in my closet..which happens to be a poncho.)

let's start with thursday:

I went to Misericordia's Halloween Party with one of my volunteers.

it was awesome! they went all out/the residents costumes were amazing.

friday:

I was supposed to have my heart appt, buuuut it got rescheduled to monday (cross your fingers!)

lots of work/school.

I went out with my roommate Courtney that night, and it was so much fun.

we ended up going to a party, and her boyfriend's band (Super Hairy) played at the party.

it was one of those weird ones where I though I would know no one and ended up seeing everyone!

I haven't been on campus the past like 6 weekends, and I've definitely missed going out.

....the whole getting home at 4 am thing was a little rough though.
pictures to come!

Saturday:

ok so I tried to go work out this morning (amazing feat-see above referenced bedtime)

....and the gym is closed.

wtf?! I had to walk through all the perspective parents/children to find this out. 

and they got to watch me stare at the sign and get angry and exclaim 'loyola is ridiculous.

exactly what you want to hear on a visit right?

but shopping was awesome.

I went to topshop for the first time in downtown chicago, and I was so impressed.

a little expensive, but there is a student discount.

and what I wore!

poor quality, but you get the idea (:

                              and then I hung out with a ton of friends that night, and ended up at another

party with a band playing (Sons of the West this time) and got to see some dear friends from France this past summer! 

seriously people, I forgot how much fun is was to actually go out. not just hang out with friends but go out/be young/be crazy.

you only get one life, so you might as well just go for it.

and while listening to the Sons of the Wes, I decided to just go for it. to just let go. and just dance to the music. life is seriously good.

sunday:

church with the momma

what I wore! 

two outfit posts in one weekend-be impressed.

scarf-topshop, shoes-jessica simpson, jeans-AE (on super sale right now), jacket-banana republic, purse-francescas

and then a chipotle feast (om nom nom)

and handing out candy to some of the adorable children of Rodger's Park-ps. whenever I have kids, they will be zombies princesses. best. idea. ever.

but first the fire department had to come! uuuuh too much smoke mahine?

our door that we decorated for loyola4chicago! apparently fishys are a bigger hit with little kids than disney characters. who would have thought?!

all in all, I'd call it a successful weekend.

Is it Christmas yet?

my momma just asked me what I wanted for christmas, and this is the perfect excuse to avoid my homework! win-win huh?!

plus, I loooooove making my christmas list, and it definitely always happens way before it's appropriate to do so.

first off....

1. Kindle Fire

cheaper than an I-pad, but almost just as awesome...plus it has 3G! say whaaaat.

2. Anything from Anthropologie...

but specifically these items

fleece lined leggings-genius, pure genius.

2. These items from Urban Outfitters

4. I want these Fyre Riding boots so bad. Like sell my soul bad.

5. The Lincoln Lawyer. So Good. Matthew Mcconaughey is smokin' hot.

6. Herringbone Blazer from AE. 

I have a new found obsession with blazers. I feel like they make me look smarter. or classy. or all of the above.

7. Workout clothes from Lululemon. 

girl's got to work on her fitness you know?! plus, I really think I'll go more often if I'm in cute clothes.

honestly, I'll be really pleased to get even one thing on this list... especially that kindle fire (hint hint momma)

plus, I looooove to buy gifts for other people, and I can't wait till it's time to decorate for christmas. 

are finals over yet?

Words of Wisdom

Heart Monitor on Halloween? Sounds Appealing.

first off, this song is my new obsession.

"there is no one like no one like me."-remember that.

secondly, I decided to go to the student service Sunday night. I'm normally not one to go to mass, but I started going with my ex, and this was my first weekend single, and I was feeling kind of lost. 

oh. my. gosh. it was exactly what I needed. the sermon was all about loving yourself, and forgiving yourself for your mistakes. plus, I sat with some new friends and felt 10x better.

now Awesome/Awkward

Awesome:

-My momma is coming to see me again!

-I went to to the Joffery Ballet on Sunday

-Pinterest. If you don't know what this is, check it out:

http://pinterest.com/

it has awesome things like this:

I want every single part of this.

-I got to volunteer this week-I couldn't make it at all last week, and it seriously about killed me. 

-I get to go to Miseriordia's (where I volunteer) halloween party-this means two costumes people! One for Thursday, and one for the weekend. I'm thinking Joan Holloway and an cute indian

-this 8 tracks playlist: http://8tracks.com/kaligo772/sometimes-you-just-want-to-be-happy-and-sing

Awkward:

-trying to eat salad out of a bag. youknow, because walking tacos are awesome, and I thought the same idea would work for a salad right? no. false. you will get ranch everywhere, and you will stab yourself with a fork, and you will look like a crack addict.

-not realizing the tights you wore to the ballet have a HUGE run right up the back. what up classy folk of chicago?!

-almost missing your stop on the EL and running to the doors and they close on you. like literally have to strongarm the doors to get them open much to the shock of the other people on the EL. good thing I work out huh?

-having 3 doctor's appointments yesterday. yes, three! worst. thing. ever.

and for the big one.

-I have to wear a heart monitor on halloween. Like full-on sticky pads, and control boxy thing.

I finally sucked it up and got my heart looked at only to find out they have no idea what's going on besides that it isn't normal, and it's not something they can find on an EKG (believe me, I had 2 yesterday). When it rains, it pours huh? Break-up, heart monitor, doctors aren't sure what's going on, and my heart randomly flips out about 3 times a day. I'm not the type of person to admit when I'm overwhelmed, normally I just work through it myself, and keep my freakouts to myself but this is a bit much.  crazy, crazy life people.

but my momma's coming, and my friends are awesome so it will all work out.

Choose to be Happy.

life gets rough, and I definitely learned that this week.

I wanted to run and hide from the world, and I wanted to just wallow. 

....don't get me wrong, I definitely did that.

but then I just decided to be happy. 

it's so much easier!

plus, if you don't fight for your own happiness, who will?

also, my horoscope (don't judge me) give me a swift kick in the a**.

"you must let go of a person or a goal from the past if you are to embrace something new and wonderful that is right there before you. yes, gemini, you know there is an opportunity waiting for you, but you are hesitant to reach for it because it means you will have to day goodbye to something to someone that has become a comfortable certainty. it isn't easy to let go of what you have to reach for something that you're not sure you'll get. but it's the only way to keep your hands and your heart free enough to accept and attain what you want."

huuuuuuuuh, this is so true and relevant to my life I almost feel violated.

but for real, being comfortable isn't necessarily being happy, and letting go isn't necessarily the end.

so I'm choosing to be happy.

and I did that whole write a letter to the person you're mad at and I tore it up into tiny little pieces, and tossed it out the sunroof as I crossed the Mississippi river back into Illinois this weekend. 

never in my life have I felt so free.

it really works wonders people.

you know what else helps? 

having amazing friends who post things like this:
http://kathleenleahy.tumblr.com/post/11541638995-read this seriously everyday this week.


and geting the hell out of dodge.
I went to University of Iowa's homecoming this weekend and had so many good things happen!




-tailgated and felt like a real college student 
-discovered a new rapper I really like
-went to a passion party! haha such a good time
-found my new go-to going out outfit (great success, I might add)
-went out and got ridiculous
-danced my a** off 
-meet a hot guy who plays hockey. scoooore!
-roadtripped with my best friend
-got to see my other 2 best friends
-yelling ridiculous things and felt completely young, wild, and free
-lead a wonderful reflection for my volunteer group


and there's so many good pictures to prove it, enjoy!

kay's a dear soul for putting up with me this weekend. get it girrrl!

my life is ridiculous, but I seriously wouldn't have it any other way.

Words of Wisdom

first off, I apologize for the crappy photo quality.

secondly, oh my! there could not have been a better quote than this one for me to find today.

breaking up is hard to do. especially when you're scared. 

I'm scared of losing my ex. I'm scared he's all there was for me. I'm scared to put myself out there again and to be rejected. I'm scared he's going through something bigger than this breakup, and that I'm walking out on him. I'm scared we ended the wrong way yet again. I'm scared to never contact him ever again.

but what did I really have with him?

history. 

it was easy. we already knew about each other

and if I'm honest with myself, I knew that he wasn't really what I wanted.

I want someone who actually truly wants to be with me, and who will try to fight for that.

that isn't him.

that's such a hard thing to admit to yourself.

it's hard to realize that you let yourself settle for something.

but don't dwell on it, as I got perfectly reminded of this week. 

let. it. go. 

easier said than done, but definitely do-able.

and now to end on a positive note....Funny pictures!

HOLY MOLY.

Meet Thug Pug, my friends. It even rhymes!

Nerd Alert.

2 posts in 1 day?!

breaking up is good for blogging, that's for sure.

anyways, onto awesome/awkward lists..

Awesome:

-my momma is here! means I get lots of groceries and magazines and we even got to eat Chipotle

-selling clothes back to Plato's Closet and getting $40. now time to pay bills..

-I went to Target today. End of story.

-I got to eat Red Mango with my momma. This is delicious frozen yogurt, just in case you didn't know.

and the big one....

-I got inducted into Phi Alpha Theta! 

I know what you're thinking too, but no, it's not a sorority.. I'm not that cool people. It's a national history honor society, and I know have a lifetime membership, and can now prove I'm a nerd anytime I want with a shiny sheet of paper.

quasi outfit post anyone? take note of those boots...they are my stylish momma's and I've been trying to pry them from her for years.... success is mine! (only for the night, but whatever)

this picture is important for two reasons.
1) shiny sheet of paper
2) I actually did my hair. like combed/curled/hair-sprayed
3) proof that I wear red. this coat is the only red thing I own. go big or go home right?!

Awkward:

-fixing your tights while in the elevator and then having the door open before your done, ooops

-eating an apple in the quiet room of the library. it seems so loud!

-seeing both my french professors in one day=lots of flustered/mumbled french.

-after being inducted into above honor society, leaving in such a rush because I want frozen yogurt, that I leave my certificate in the room. talk about awkward re-enterance. 

overall, it's been a wonderful day. my momma is definitely the one responsible for this, and after this weekend, it was a much needed break.

Happiness on Monday.

love love love this quote. perfect for how I feel right now. kind of lost, but kind of ok with that

instant self-esteem boost. plus drake and nicki are sooooo cute in this video. you got it girrrrrrrl! 

I'm so proud of you.

My life is an Adele album.

ok so as I'm sure you all have noticed, I have been pretty MIA recently.

there's a bunch of reasons for this...tons of schoolwork, volunteer work, normal work.

I also decided to graduate next August, which is a year early, and feel really good about this decision.

I've been feeling frustrated with school and I really think a year off is exactly what I need right now.

my plan so far is to try and volunteer for a year either through Americorp or aboard somewhere.

super exciting/stressful at the same time.

......but to be honest, all of that isn't really why I haven't been blogging much.

the main reason is I got back together with my ex-boyfriend and I was focusing on that relationship and trying to make it a happy/healthy one. this meant a lot of driving and effort on my part since it was long-distance. I thought everything was going really well also. we were going on dates and going to church together (a big deal to me), and overall I was happy.

but if any of you are familiar with this relationship, you can probably guess how it ends. I'm not really one to share/flaut my life all over the internet but this is a big deal to me, and will probably be something I'll be dealing with for a bit. so the boy and I got back together officially (first time it's been officially, couple other times unofficially) and I thought everything was finally right. we both seemed to be at good places in our lives, and I thought we had a chance to get it right. so I invested myself. I put effort in.

but in the back of my mind, I knew that he could back out at any minute. it's happened many many many times before, and I end up feeling like complete crap. but this time seemed different. he seemed changed.

but last night he backed out again. 

.....after I told everyone close to me, and after I stood up for him and defended him to my upset friends and families.... after I listened to both of my best friends pretty much tell me that I was making the worst decision of my life....after I had finally decided that he seemed to really want to be with me and that I didn't need to question it anymore....after we had decided to be Don Draper and Joan Halloway from Mad Men. good thing I didn't buy those leopard print heels and a wiggle dress yet....

he just doesn't want it.

he's been acting this whole time.

and he didn't want it from the beginning. 

and I can't make him want it.

and now I have to walk away. even if I still care about him. even if I think he's just scared. even if I think there's something bigger going on as well. I hate walking away. I'm bad at cutting people out of my life. I've already lost too many to deal with, so how could I possibly loss one more?

and the worst part is I should have expected it. but I really like to believe people.

I am naive. and silly. and I care too much.

and it gets me hurt often.

but... I still wouldn't change it. I'd rather believe that people are inherently good than bad, and to trust a boy when he says he misses me and wants to take this risk with me. I really thought I'd get that crazy wonderful romance. what kind of life would it be if you didn't take risks? or believed everyone was out to get you? 

I'd rather be naive any day.

plus I have amazing friends, and my mom is awesome. I called her last night at 5am when all of this was happening and she drives the 2 and half hours to see me and is coming back to Chicago with me tonight. I seriously don't know what'd I do without her. my support system is so incredibly solid, and that my friends, is a wonderful feeling.

and my mom bought me a new purse and scarf, yaaaay sympathy gifts!

but life will get better. and I'll get A's on all my midterms this week, and it will be a good week. 

Words of Wisdom

just some words of wisdom for you all (: I promise to actually post this weekend once all my midterm/paper are all done.... have a good wednesday!

Words of Wisdom

via pinterest

Happy Birthday Best Friend!

today is a great day people....it's Ms. Kathleen Leahy's 21st birthday!

should probably be a national holiday, I mean I bought a pinata and everything. 

it's fiesta themed and yes I got a ton of stares walking through the streets of chicago with a pinata.

someone even asked me if I was having an ok night/needed help...uuuuhhh.

anyways, meet carlos!

and now onto the greatness that is Kat...

iowa roadtrips!

likes pugs!

the great apartment search/summer roommate!

and we danced in the rain together. perfection.

making that first legal purchase,  oooh yeah!

happy birthday best friend!

go tear it up! and based on what I saw last night, it's going to be an excellent in week in the life of Kathleen Leahy, my friends.