Issues of the heart.

once again, I have been super absent from the blogging world.

finals and the holidays got the best of me but at least I have good grades and wonderful presents!

  

I also completed all of my cardiac tests on one of my free days during finals week. 

probably one of the stupidest choices I've ever made.

going by yourself to a hospital is no fun, and especially not when everyone there keeps asking you why you're alone. 

but I did it, and then I went back to campus and took some more tests.

and between the stress of finals and rushing to pack and come home and then getting home and wanting to see everyone, I completely forgot about the tests and getting the results.

and then I suddenly remembered and started to freak out/stress about them.

and the fact that the hospital forgot to fax my results to my cardiologist was more frustrating.

and then they forgot to send them over again until it was two weeks after my tests and I still had no results. 

but I got results today..

and it's not terrible, but I do definitely have something wrong with my heart.

so far, what I've gotten told is that I have a small hole/channel between the chambers of my heart.

the cardiologist isn't sure how big it is or where exactly it is, but he said it's not horrible news so I'm choosing to believe him.

I have to do another test to figure all that out, and then go from there. 

based on my google findings so far (real legit I promise), they just repair the hole and everything will be fine. plus, they prescribed me meds to slow my heart down so I won't notice it when it trips and races, and will basically be more comfortably.  I thought this was really considerate of them.

and hopefully I'll get a wicked scar like 'arry Potter!

I told my mom I wanted a boob job to cover up the scar also. 

she didn't find that funny.

most of all, I'm just glad they found something, and I haven't been imagining all these things with my heart. but it's still kind of scary. 

I've been pretty naive all along and just assumed that it would all just end up that I've been too stressed and just needed to slow down.

so I'm still in shock.

not quite what I was expecting.